Breathe through your vagina! - An attempt to catch ineffability

Abstract

This article is an experimental journey witnessing one moment of my 20-minute performance, where I deconstructed pole dance with the symbol of a cross to analyse intricacies of the female body. I chose to explore one moment as it holds a range of indefinite interpretations. This one moment offers multiplicity, where I introduce my female body as speaking subject and parody the male gaze associated with pole dance. Further, I highlight the meanings I derive from the symbol of the cross and the crucifix coloured by my Catholic upbringing. Additionally, I share an exploration of a feminine imaginary and the fluidity of deconstruction. During my investigations, I question how undisciplining dance relates to my experiences. This writing implements artistic linguistic structures and word usage to sense destabilisation and unexpectedness.